Healing

Zine Information
 

Available From: Lionheart Distribution

Contents/Description: This zine was expanded from the net. This is a 181 page TS novel about Blair coming to terms with events in his childhood that haunt him even to this day - especially when the past catches up to the present. The zine contains three sections, Healer, Boogyman, and Fissures, with Fissures being all new, never before seen.


Price: $24.00 (US) * $29.00 (Other)

Observations of a Slash Slut:

I can't even do justice to this wonderful 'zine by Alyjude. It's one of those stories that goes soul deep. The kind you carry around for days, and you don't want to read anything else, 'cause, really, how can that be topped? If you previously read Healer and Boogieman from the 'net and so are considering passing up this 'zine, *don't*. Not only have those two stories been revised, but we get a whole new part, Fissures, nearly as long in itself as the other two parts. My reaction to Fissures was kind of interesting. I felt like it was the missing piece I had to have, a necessity, and I didn't even know it 'til it was there! It gave me closure I, as the reader, really needed. So what's this 'zine about? It's a wonderful, first-time story as only Aly can write. After being involved in an attempted bank robbery gone terribly wrong, Major Crimes is left torn apart down to it's very heart. Among the losses and injuries is Blair. The story is about the aftermath of his injury. How it becomes a blessing in that through this damaged Blair, a healing is able to take place in Major Crimes. But it also brings up Blair's past in which he, Jim and Naomi discover a a different, much more painful wound. If you are a fan of Changes by Jean Kluge I don't see how you could be disappointed with this 'zine.

The illustrations by K9 are a wonderful compliment to this 'zine. I think she really captures the feel of the story and her color piece for the cover is hauntingly perfect.

But Don't Take My Word It!:

Angie's Review:

This is another of those "hesitant to buy, since it's already been on the net." Again, no need to worry. The last story of the series is Fissures, and it's longer than The Healer and Boogeyman combined.

Again, beautiful cover art, this time by K9. Also, again, spiral bound. (can you tell that's a big selling point with me?)

Aly addressed the issue of Naomi in this novel, and did it in a sensitive, and enlightened way. I tend to be more visceral, and I don't know if I could have been as fair. After reading the Healer, and Boogeyman, my only thought was, "where the hell was she while all this was going on?" Aly handled all the issues very well, and compassionately. Beautiful novel.

Amy Mountz' Review!:

I just read the Sentinel zine Healing by Alyjude, and it was wonderful. The zine is published by Angel Wings Press and it has a delightful color cover of Blair in his 5 year old mind set with Deva, the stuffed black jaguar. The art is by K9, with some great black and white interior art. There is one that is just gorgeous at the end of the first section of Healing with Jim and Blair nude on the bed in a clinch that is just beautiful. Bravo K9 for more lovely art work.

The zine is spiral bound, broken into three distinct sections. Each section flows nicely. The print is easy to read and there are very few typos. I do appreciate the plastic cover over the front of the zine. They stay so much nicer that way.

The premise of this zine is based on the story of Healer, by the same author. Alyjude does a wonderful job expanding and filling in the story however, that I felt complete and satisfied after finishing the zine. I sat down and read it in one day. It's one of those that you don't want to put down once you start.

The story is about a tragedy that strikes the Major Crimes unit as Blair is about to become officially sworn in as Jim's permanent partner. There are a few new characters introduced early with just enough background to get your interest and then tragedy strikes. The FBI screw up and the fallout is the death of three characters, one well known to Sentinel fans. Blair is injured because of an FBI agent that is looking to blame anyone else for his mistake. Blair is in a coma, and when he awakens, his mind is that of a 5year old. This is a heartbreaking and delightful new twist to Jim/Blair h/c, angst stories. The author really captures the way a 5 year old precocious child acts, talks and loves. Jim is torn between his love of the old Blair (pre injury) and his delight in living through the eyes of this new Blair. Blair's outlook on life is so simple and yet so profound, and his unconditional love and acceptance help the characters deal and heal from their losses. The group from Major Crimes come together and show just how much of a family they really are.

We learn that Blair suffered some abuse by the hands of one of Naomi's boyfriends when he was 5 years old. We learn throughout the story the extent of that abuse and its affects on Blair as he remembers more of his childhood. We also see Naomi as she was a young mother, the mistakes she made, the love she had, and why she did the things she did. The story revolves around Jim, Blair and Naomi coming to terms with the abuse Blair suffered as a child, and Blair becoming a cop and Naomi's response to it.

There is humor, smarm, h/c, angst, suspense, and action in this zine. I highly recommend it. It can bring you to tears, and make you laugh within moments of each other. I can't say enough about how well the author portrayed a 5 year old minded Blair in a 30 year old body. I was smiling through much of the first part along with Jim at Blair's actions and antics. I loved Jim's reactions to Blair and how he dealt with him. Jim never wavered in his love and determination to take Blair home and take care of him. It was beautiful and heart warming.

This zine is a keeper to be read over and over.

Patt's review!:

Healing
Review by Ramblin Rose

Art by the Divine Miss M. hee hee. To those that don't know who I'm talking about, I'm speaking of K9.

The Cover is breathtaking. It sums up the entire story. Such innocence and beauty. I love this one so much.

All artwork inside is done by K9.

Page 35: Jim and Blair are very sweet in this one. The look of love on Jim's face blew me away.

Page 61: Nude Jim and Blair. This is one of the nicest nudes I've ever seen. Ever. I love this one soooooo much. Do you suppose I really like it?

Page 81: Blair in a shoulder holster. Woo hoo. What can I say? I once wrote a silly story about how much this turns everyone on. I wasn't kidding. Hot damn, but this one does it for me. Now you know why I call her Divine Miss M. This piece shows a sexy, tough and just plain hot Blair.

Page 85: Blair holding Deva. A very sweet print. I love this one too. I might as well tell you now, there isn't one I don't like. However, I adore some more than others.

Page 97: A very young precious look at our Blair. It is so darn sweet, cute, adorable and just treasured. Perfection is a word that comes to mind. His hair, his eyes, his sweet little nose and his hands. All perfect. This is a truly beautiful Blair.

Page 175: Jim and Blair looking at each other with nothing but love and adoration in their eyes.

K9, you have knocked my socks off with the beauty, tenderness, loss and love in all of these pieces. Thank you so much for making my life so much richer with your gorgeous art. This made Aly's zine even nicer. Thank you, thank you, thank you.

Bowing now to the Divine Miss M.

Healing
By Alyjude

One of the best things about the beginning of this story is the set up. Aly has introduced all of the characters in their own setting and life. By the time we move on, all mean a great deal to us.

I'm not going to tell you everything about this story. I really feel like you would want to read the heavy-duty stuff for yourself.

Blair is left in a coma, waking up with the mind of a five year old. Oh, I'm sorry, almost six year old.

Jim's love and devotion for Blair makes me cry often. I also love the way Major Crime helps take over watching Blair. They all love him almost as much as Jim does.

Jim accepts his new Blair but misses the old one. His longing to have done things differently is quite heartbreaking.

Snip:
However, Jim also noticed that if they continued to watch and if they were lucky enough to be pulled into Blair's world, even briefly. The sadness would turn to a kind of open joy and wonderment and their faces would relax. Their smiles broader, and their own lifeload would lift just a bit.
End Snip.

This gives you an idea of how everyone feels about the new Blair. When I read this part I not only agreed, but also felt this way. This wonderful Blair made me feel happy.

We all know that Blair does come back and Aly writes it beautifully.

This is a great story told by a great storyteller. Thank you, Aly.

On to Boogeyman.

Boogeyman
By Alyjude

Wow, this is heavy-duty angst. It's so well written that I stopped a couple of times. It was making me so angry. I hate people that abuse children and from the way this is written, I know Aly does too. Such a sad, sad tale.

It's even worse when Jim and Blair are arguing about "Mickey" and what to do about him. The description of Mickey and Mickey's thoughts were very frightening.

I totally love Blair as a cop. I just wanted to mention that. He is very believable in this role, to me.

I don't want to say too much, but Blair's spirit guide saw to it that Blair would not be hurt again.

I feel like Naomi missed a lot in Blair's life. I just don't like her too much.

I'm on to Fissures now. I just want to say I could tell you tons of things about this Boogeyman part, but I just felt like it would give away too much. This is something I wouldn't have wanted to know ahead of time. I'd want to read it first time for myself. You best read some things. So please don't anyone think I didn't care for this part because I'm not as vocal. I'm just trying to not give away the whole damn story.

Fissures
By Alyjude

This is a heartbreaking part. More so than the first two. Jim is making love to Blair and Blair has a flashback. It scared and hurts both men.

Blair is forced to think about what happened that caused the panic attack. I have to tell you, I dislike Naomi in the part so far. I'm hoping she can be redeemed, but not holding out much hope. No matter what, I don't think my feelings will change. Someone else's might, but not mine.

Reading about Blair's past is causing me to feel two different things. One is love and the other is pure hatred. How could you not love that child that Aly has described? I can't even imagine not loving him at any age.

My heart is breaking for both men. It's so sad watching Blair pull away from Jim. Jim finally calls Naomi and leaves a very angry message for her.

Naomi gets the message, but as always, she's always to late in my eyes. I'm sure others would cut her some slack, but not me.

Reading about Naomi and Blair's healing time was heartbreaking, sweet and full of love.

I finished this story still not caring for Naomi. But as a Mom I also know that you can't always be perfect. Therefore, I'm trying to leave my mind open to take a few more things in. I'm going to read this last part again tomorrow and see if I feel differently. We'll see.

Again, I'm not telling you too much about this story, because I really feel like I would be giving the whole thing away. And I don't want to do that. This is a great story, one that everyone should read.

Thank you, very much, Aly. I loved it.

Spoiler:

Blair does regain his adult mindset and memories.

Why you should buy this 'zine:

Do I really need to say more? LOL! The perfect 'zine to curl up with.

Why you shouldn't buy this 'zine:

You're part of NASA's attempts to start a colony on Mars and you can only fit so much in your space-bags?

Miscellany:

First-times.

Death of canon supporting character.